What’s the chance of a sexually active 17 year old getting a STD? Well, it could happen, but I never thought that it would happen to me. I’ve only slept with two people and I’m already infected with Gonorrhea and Herpes.
Luckily, gonorrhea can be treated. I have already taken my health class and learned about STD’s. But for about a year, I have been having cold sores and genital sores. I didn’t take it seriously, but my genital sores were bothering me, and I took it serious.
So, I went and looked it up on the internet. I typed in the symptoms and herpes popped up. My heart just dropped. I tried to look up more information, but all I could find was that it was related to HPV and herpes. I got very scared and told my sister. She told me to get a pap smear, which I didn’t know what the heck that was or meant.
I didn’t tell my boyfriend at the time, because I was so scared and devastated. But he wanted to have sex and I kept telling him no. Finally, I told him I might have an STD. At first he thought I was just joking because I was laughing when I told him. But then he knew I was serious and didn’t say a word. All he said was “are you sure?”
A couple weeks later, I had my check up. I had a pap smear and my blood tested. My doctor said she would call me the following Monday if anything came up. Eventually, she did. She said that everything was fine just that I had herpes and gonorrhea. I almost had a heart attack. After I hung up the phone I was crying. When my boyfriend asked me what was the result. I couldn’t tell it to his face so I emailed him.
I had to take eight pills at one time for the gonorrhea, but that nearly killed me, because it was hurting my stomach. My boyfriend and I didn’t know who to blame. Before we slept together, we both had only slept with one person. Of course, the person we both slept with also slept with someone before us so the pattern goes on.
I couldn’t believe it. I wanted to die. I didn’t want to live on knowing I was going to have herpes for the rest or my life. I still want to have kids, but at the same time, I don’t want to pass herpes on to them, although that is a small chance.
It has been hard for me and my boyfriend. But as time goes on, I have learned to live with it. It’s as if I never even had it. Although this had just happen recently over the summer. I think I can live with it, but I don’t think I can tell just anyone that I have herpes.
Now, I’m so paranoid that I might get some kind of STD that I get check ups more frequently. I’m upset about it all, but what can I do? It’s there and it will always be there right? So, I just put a smile on and hope others will be careful.
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