My Story of Drugs & HPV

drug-party-girl-with-hpv HPV… 1 in every 3 people get this virus. Scary when you actually stop and think about it; most people have it and don’t even know it.

I was one of those people. When I graduated high school, I became a WILD girl! I was getting high everyday all day and then drinking at night and being sexual with (ashamed to admit) A LOT of people.

Weed had taken over my life….my life revolved around weed. I quit my job and dropped out of college and spent my time rolling and smoking joint or smoking pipes and bongs and hookahs with weed. I didn’t care about anything and didnt care who I slept with. I didn’t even care if I never heard from them again.

I hated what I had become. I wanted to stop this horrible vicious cycle but I couldn’t. I was too addicted to the weed. I couldn’t even go a hour without being high. I had started taking my mothers loratab as well…anything I could do to get that feeling. I was in fear that I would soon be turning to stronger more powerful drugs because my body had become immune to the weed and I had to smoke LOTS of it to even get a little high. I wanted help to quit and wanted to go back to being me even though I hated to feel and deal with reality. Weed made me not care…that’s why I liked it. I didn’t even care if I got caught (I would roll joints @ stoplights and smoke them while driving) I didn’t care if cops saw me doing it, or if they saw me buying it. A part me of wanted to get caught so I HAD to stop. I never got caught though. I remember one week I was extremely depressed and unhappy with what I had become and I prayed to god that I would get the strength to quit and that I would find someone who would love me for me and not just want to get laid. The next day I decided that Sean (my sons dad) really liked me for me and ever since I broke up with him (which was 3 years earlier) he still hung around. So I decided to sleep with him and maybe that would make me like him again.

Well it didn’t. It only made me hate him. I stopped hanging around him so much and I started to feel really weird. Very moody. Well 5 days before I was supposed to start my period I had a hunch to take a pregnancy test. I did and it turned out positive. God had answered my prayers. Having that miracle inside me gave me the strength to quit all the self damaging things I was doing and I would have someone who would always love me for me!!

Well @ my 3rd visit to the doctor for the pregnancy I told the doctor I itched A LOT towards my bottom. So she looked and found genital warts!! (my mom was int he room with me btw). And she said, “Oh no sweetie this isn’t good” And I said what? she responded with “you have genital warts”. I started baling, and my mom did too. I was so ashamed and embarrassed and quit frankly in SHOCK! I had NOOO idea I had them. And I had no idea who I got them from and who I gave them to. I itched down there for about a year. Well…..she burned them off with acid and said that should take care of it and after the baby comes we will do a pap and just watch it.

My first pap after having ym son came back abnormal she had come in every 3 months for paps and every one or about a year came back bad. Then they did a few biopsys and even took two chunks out to try to get all the bad cells. Well when I went in to hear the pathology she said things are worse than they expected and that she needs to scrap everything inside to get the “pre cancerous” cells out.

When I went in she actually had 2 options for me. #1: the scrapping. There is no guarantee she will get everything and if she doesn’t the cells will turn into cancer. #2: coneoscpy. 98% chance she will get everything BUT chances are slim I will be able to get pregnant again and if I do chances of me carrying it full term is even more slim. So my options were possibly get cancer or probably not have kids again. I knew I wanted more kids but if I had got cancer I would be there for them anyway. So I chose the cone!

My pap after the cone came back normal!!! THANK GOD!!! I am so happy!!

I guess my message this virus if FAR more dangerous than you think and moms PLEASE get your daughters the Gardisil shot!